Long day...and it's only 4 o'clock in the evening. I was barely 2 kms away from "him" and yet couldn't meet him. "He's" not here next week. And that means we'll have to go a whole 3 weeks before we get to see each other again. I'm complaining simply because I find it silly that I'm restricted by rules at home. Ironically, the rules are implied. One can interpret them as one wishes. But with my luck, I always get screwed.
I was at my grandparents' place today. Aunt and cousin came along too. Did nothing. Slept prior to lunch while everyone else enjoyed each other's company. I barely ate anything for lunch. Nibbled on things. The diet's still on, sort of. And I choose not to eat when I'm sulking. It's my way of showing defiance. Post lunch I watched TV all alone. Am back home now...as bored as ever. I need to study, but can't find the motivation to. I want to read, but I'm feeling sick too.
"He" said he'd come home to meet me in the evening. I don't know how everyone will take it. "He's" more than welcome at home, but I know everyone grudges me even a little bit of happiness here. I may go out for a walk with "him", or maybe a cup of coffee sounds nice. Can coffee (minus the sugar and milk) make you fat?
2 comments:
I may be a bit late in leaving a comment....but then u can't really complain considerin that u don any any comments on ur blog yet :-)
'I know everyone grudges me even a little bit of happiness here' - this kinda caught my attention....
Parents tend to get over-protective sometimes....ya, even to the extent of curtailing ur freedom...but try thinkin of it this way - it's coz they love u....
Wen u r in a mess, or in any problem, these are the ppl who will giv an arm and a leg to bail u out. U know - theirs is the closest u can get to 'unconditional love'.
Believe me - if ur parents ever see ur 'I know everyone grudges me even a little bit of happiness here', it will hit them hard!!
I know that they can get to u sometimes....over-protective and all....But i've seen them bail me out of trouble. I've had them backing me even when it meant facing impossible odds.
I hardly know u, and I don know ur folks at all.....but I think u can use the days u have left to build better communication. Y not get them a surprise gift or sumthin?
Well...guess I hav too much free time...and a 24 hr net connection doesn't hurt either...i'm sorry if u took offense at anythin i said above.....jo mann mein aaya, bak diya :-)
nice blog...u look to be a nice girl...may u always remain happy with your family..family is what ultimately stands up for you (parents, siblings to be precise), so even if you have to curb certain things for them, i guess its worth it sometimes...
However, as you grow older standup for yourself too...
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