Suffocation

I've finally had enough. I'm almost 22 and I should be allowed to make my own decisions. Somehow that's not happening. I wanted to go out in the evening to meet up with my new batchmates. But my plan was thrown out of the window even before the details were brought to light. Thankfully, the plan was postponed to next week. But the person I wanted to go with won't be in town for that. So I guess I won't end up going.

Then, another plan was made. Lunch was meant to be out for me tomorrow. While my mother and sister spent the day at my grandparent's place, I was supposed to meet "him" for lunch. Yet again, my plan was trashed.

I've sat at home for almost 3 months now. I feel so wasted. The only genuine chance I get to go out for sometime is over the weekend, usually on a Saturday. I wanted to travel to Bombay to meet a close friend. He's someone who knows exactly what I'm going through, for he's being put through a similar misery. We're in it together. But they said I was "too young" to travel alone. Apparently I'm not old enough to take a 2 hour flight to meet a friend.

The funny part is that I don't seem to have any power in my life. I'm living my life on someone else's terms. And then people talk about having an "Identity Crisis"!!!